Wednesday, September 20, 2017


Every day I give my all,
In everything I do...
If only my all was good enough,
Maybe I wouldn't be so screwed.
But even when I give my all,
It isn't enough for you.
I have given you my all...
I wish my all would do.

-Penny Bronzelle
September 20th, 2017

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

"Shadow & Shell"

I saw a version of me fly by once
As I looked out the window of my life;
And I'm sad to say that
I don't resemble that person anymore,
Not even a little bit...
I don't know where she went,
But all that I have left of her
Is the glimpse of a fleeting shadow,
And this shell with nothing in it.

-Penny Bronzelle
August 15th, 2017

Friday, August 4, 2017

Planning Dreams & Memories.

I dream up all these memories that I'll never get to have,
At least not in the way that
I had planned.

- Penny Bronzelle
August 3rd, 2017

Wednesday, August 2, 2017


It plagues me like a curse,
Leaving me soaking wet,
I can't wait for Fall,
Or Winter would be better yet...
As for Summertime,
I'm finished with you,
And I'm over all this sweat.

- Penny Bronzelle
August 2nd, 2017

"Dreaming Again"

I'm dreaming about you again
Just like I swore that I wouldn't do,
But here I am with my eyes wide open...
And I'm dreaming about you.

- Penny Bronzelle
August 2nd, 2017

Sunday, July 30, 2017


I am but a shadow of my former self,
Broken down,
Wearing thin...
I wonder how much more I'll take,
Before I finally concede the loss,
And let my pain win. 

- Penny Bronzelle
July 30th, 2017

Saturday, July 22, 2017


I know I'm not the first
To be mystified by the magic of how you came to be.
It seems as if I dreamed you,
Closed my eyes to sleep and when I awoke, I blinked & there you were.
I know it wasn't that easy,
My body bears the scars
From growing you.
I'd do it all again,
Just to be here with you now,
You are my living, breathing
I don't need to know how.

- Penny Bronzelle
July 22nd, 2017

(Written in a few minutes, right after waking up.)

Thursday, July 6, 2017

"Whole Again"

Can you sense that I'm broken &
That I am all but coming unglued,
I am not as happy as I should be
While I'm here with you.

Something in me feels off,
Something in me feels wrong,
Something in me feels tired,
Maybe it's been me all along.

I need someone to fix me,
To come along & make me whole again,
Because I am so broken here now,
And I hate myself for it
Because you're light, life, &
The purest of joy & I'm struggling to engage...
All these other health problems
Keep getting in my way.

I feel like I'm already failing
To be a Mother to you,
This postpartum depression is kicking my ass...
Maybe I'll make it,
I'll do better than I think,
I'll survive this Hell I'm dealing with,
And be happier than I have been in weeks.

I love you,
I love you so much more than you'll ever know,
Which is why I feel awful that
You need me to be healthy & whole,
And right now I'm broken from the word "go."

I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Please forgive me for not being whole.

I'll get there someday,
With you by my side...
I will be whole again,
Someday, in a while...
I will be whole for you.
Just don't give up on me, too.
I love you & I will be whole for you.

- Penny Bronzelle
July 6th, 2017

Thursday, June 15, 2017

"I Found You"

I'm not sure how it happened,
That I went to bed scared
And over tired with you being
The furthest thing from my mind,
Then somewhere along the way,
Deep within the recessed corners of my mind...
I found you.
In finding you
I found comfort.
In finding you
I found peace.
In finding you
I found my way
To escape the scary things.
In finding you
I found a way...
To forget about me.
And apparently when I'm afraid,
You are exactly what I need.

- Penny Bronzelle
June 15th, 2017

Thursday, April 6, 2017

"The Stars Bear Your Names"

"For every star in the Heavens has a name,
And every name I have for the stars is Yours."

-Penny Bronzelle
April 6th, 2017

***For my son, whose light brightens my every day & my daughter, who I'm sure will do the same.***