Tuesday, November 7, 2017

" Over & Done"

You're married,
And so I am...
But not to each other,
No, I am NOT the one.
In the battle for your affection
I lost,
And she won.
Bravo.
The game is over.
Finished.
Done.
But if that's really true,
Then why do I STILL feel
Anything at all for you?

- Penny Bronzelle
November 7th, 2017

"Fool"

In the corners of my mind,
I'm still a fool for you.
Remembering words spoken &
The way you looked at me
Like an idiot in love would do.
But I am not in love with you.
So I lie in bed remembering
All these things that I should forget...
Begging myself to move on, &
Lying to myself saying, "Not yet."
I am trapped in a moment
I never should have had...
Wishing so much to be able
To relive it...
I am wishing for that so bad.
Yet the rational part of me says
To get over you,
But who is ever rational anymore?
In my rational mind, you're over me.
In my rational heart, you're done.
But in my other mind, &
Other heart,
You miss me & say, "I'm the one."
If only I could reconcile the Differences between the two,
Maybe then I'd be whole again...
Whole again,
With you.
But I won't really wish for this,
No, that's not something I will do...
Because I'm not a fool to still be
In
Love
With
You.

-Penny Bronzelle
November 7th, 2017

Thursday, November 2, 2017

"Words Of A Ghost"

When you hear a song that
Makes you remember words
Spoken to you by another,
And those words pull at the    Strings of your heart...
It feels as if you've just heard
Spoken words of a ghost.

The chill running down your spine,
The goosebumps on your arms,
The knot in your stomach,
The tears in your eyes...
Leftovers from a love gone bad,  Leftovers from a lover who long since said "goodbye."

All remembered in an instant,
The moment you heard a song
That made you

Remember
Feel
Happy
Sad
Angry
Depressed
Sorry
Dirty
Cry.

- Penny Bronzelle
November 2nd, 2017

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Still.

I hate that you're always there. 
I fight for you to leave,
I beg for you to stay.
No wonder nothing's changed
I'm still standing in my own way.

-Penny Bronzelle
Oct. 17th, 2014 at 1:13am

Friday, September 29, 2017

"Declined"

Reaching out to grab a hand
That isn't mine
And I'm naively surprised
When it declines.

- Penny Bronzelle
September 29th, 2017

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

"Anymore"

I don't let myself think about you anymore
Because when I do...
Nothing makes any sense
But you.

-Penny Bronzelle
September 25th, 2017

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

"MY ALL"

Every day I give my all,
In everything I do...
If only my all was good enough,
Maybe I wouldn't be so screwed.
But even when I give my all,
It isn't enough for you.
I have given you my all...
I wish my all would do.

-Penny Bronzelle
September 20th, 2017

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

"Shadow & Shell"

I saw a version of me fly by once
As I looked out the window of my life;
And I'm sad to say that
I don't resemble that person anymore,
Not even a little bit...
I don't know where she went,
But all that I have left of her
Is the glimpse of a fleeting shadow,
And this shell with nothing in it.

-Penny Bronzelle
August 15th, 2017

Friday, August 4, 2017

Planning Dreams & Memories.

I dream up all these memories that I'll never get to have,
At least not in the way that
I had planned.

- Penny Bronzelle
August 3rd, 2017

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

"Sweat"

It plagues me like a curse,
Leaving me soaking wet,
I can't wait for Fall,
Or Winter would be better yet...
As for Summertime,
I'm finished with you,
And I'm over all this sweat.

- Penny Bronzelle
August 2nd, 2017